First day vibe

I hate and love the first day of school year. Now, I’ve experienced my first day of school as a junior student, it’s weird how every 1st day of the school year, it’s a different feeling; when actually it’s still the same school, same food in the canteen, same kind of chair and table. Nothing really changed. But I guess the feelings or emotions students feel on the 1st day or even the whole term or school year is not based on the aesthetics of the school. Because the school doesn’t change, well maybe it did because our building is freshly painted; I can even smell the stink of the paint although those changes don’t affect the students that much. Anyway, what is there to care about the paint of the classrooms.

When you think about it, every new school year, we feel different. This year I was really excited. I was excited to see my friends, to bond with them again, to create new experiences while I can still remember my 1st year, my frosh days. Funny when I think about it. Of course, I didn’t know many people back then. I don’t know how to commute, I’d get lost inside the campus. I’m easily awed with what I see but now, everything looks the same. Not to mention that I’m really pissed with those frosh especially during the 1st week or 1st month, because they always block your way. They’ll walk in groups, like 5 people lining up vertically in front of you and there is me in a panic mode, hustling not to be late. But for them, they’re so relax and as if not minding other people walking along the same SJ Walk they’re blocking. Although I must admit, before, that was just us. I could say that this phenomenon is a trend in La Salle. Almost all the people I know feel the same with the frosh, although all those people could look back and say that before it was them. But of course, now that it’s not us, it’s really annoying. Frosh year is the embarrassing yet memorable year where everyone doesn’t know anyone, and everyone tries to know everyone. Just the sad thing is sometimes people don’t like what they know, and the supposed happy friendship loses their bond. But it’s nice to have friends who stayed until now.

Is the first day that important? For me, I can’t tell.I could say no because what you feel on the 1st day easily changes on the 3rd day or after a week. Although it would be better that at the start of the school year, a student is motivated to do well but I experienced that already. Last year, I had a nice vibe, I wanted to have good grades, be active in extracurricular activities, but as things change, your emotions change. The feeling of excitement and enthusiasm changed and I became tired, bored and frustrated. It wasn’t such a happy year for me.

I don’t know how to explain the 1st day of school. I feel like I’m making such big deal out of it. But for me, it’s a big deal because it involves a lot of ones emotions. During my vacation I don’t want that 1st day date to come, I want to enjoy my vacation, I still want to sleep long, but of course, I can’t change anything and that day still arrived. So when it was that day, I was actually excited. How can one’s emotion shift that fast? I don’t really know. Then now, I’m facing reality that school is not just a place where you can meet your friends. You also meet your professors here, those terror professors and unending major subjects. Some professors already give assignments. Now, I’m afraid and worried.

School life is really a frustration for students; it plays too much with ones emotions. But when you pass through all those and reflect, school life will always be a memorable one. That one is a fact.